Does he love me? Please read this and tell me what you think

 Does he love me? by free online agony aunt. I have been getting in a state and hope you can help me. My friends say that he loves me and then they say they are not sure or he does not. Fat lot of use that is to me. He is trying to please me one day and then does not give a toss the day after. If he was consistent it would make it so much easier. Let me explain...

Geoff seems to have some sort of personality disorder, but that does not mean that he does not love me. Does he or does he not though? How can anyone tell me the answer? I could ask a professional but they would not have even spoken to him or met him. On the other hand an agony aunt who works online has heard it all before and has a pretty good idea of what to say and how to weight people up. Would they tell me for free or would I have to pay? He has been seen by the doctor and referred to a psychiatrist and several counsellors and also a hypnotist at one stage. They have tried to explain it to him but he insists they are wrong. They are now telling him that if he sees them regularly it will help him but he has to help himself too. This is a problem because he will not even admit that he has this problem. Now we move on to how this comes into this question about does he love me. When he is "normal" and in a good mood he seems to love me and care deeply. He is good to be with, helpful, always quick to offer to wash up or scrub the flooor and he can be very affectionate with wanting to hold my hand, kiss me, cuddle me and snuggle up to me while we watch television. But when he goes into his "unnormal" self he is the total opposite and loses his temper, calls me names, shouts at me, accuses me of things and tries very hard to cause friction. He then gets it into his head I am guilty of all sorts which I have never done and makes my life a living hell for either an hour, a day or a week. Eventually he comes out of this and gets back to being nice again.

So why do I ask does he love me? What sort of answer would I get from a professional? It is a good idea to ask a free online agony aunt? or is this trying to cut corners? At times being with Geoff is fantastic. We have great days out. Last week we went to a fair, we also went for a short break by the seaside. Every second of it was bliss. But then just a few days after he lost his temper with me, told me I am a fat horrible cow, that he hates me and wishes I would drop dead. This was followed by him sulking and crying for ages. He then sat sobbing and telling me that he wished he had never met me. Hours later he tells me he cannot live without me.

The trauma of this change from good to bad all of the time exhausts me and he is also so confused so it confuses me too. The doctors cannot tell me anymore about what he thinks of me or what he feels for me because I know Geoff far better than they do. They can only guess. They try to explain to me about his illness but there again each person is different. I often feel it is better to stay with Geoff simply because he needs me. Then at other times I feel it is better to tell him to go because I myself am reduced to tears at times. My life is getting more and more lonely because if I want to go anywhere I feel I have to make sure Geoff is alright first and if he is in one of his bad moods I cancel and stay with him. It can be like taking care of a child. When he is in distress he need a cuddle yet when he is angry he will not let me anywhere near him. There are a few times when he scares me, especially when his eyes blaze with fire and he is really losing it. I have felt sometimes that if I had been alone with him he may well have hurt me badly.

He is taking medication but he says it makes him drowsy and angry. The doctors are trying different things and say they will see if they can get it right and if not will change it to something else. For over a year now he has been on this particular thing and he knows that when he takes it it gives him side effects that he finds hard to cope with. Sometimes he gets really bad headaches and then gets very grumpy and tells me that he is not sure his life is worth living. Sometimes he has stopped taking the medication altogether - without telling the doctors and without telling me - but then he gets more and more of his bad moods and none of the good ones. I have been told that him being like this is typical of this problem but the doctors are not seeing it for hours on end every day as I do. I wish there was something I could take so that I would find it easier to cope with all of this as with me it is never ending.

Have you got any idea? If you have please tell me as it is worrying me a lot. I am thinking of consulting a good professional such as online psychic readings, or for a cheaper service best email psychic readings, or accurate psychic online readings.

 All I want to know is does he love me and want me to be happy - not because he needs someone to take care of him but because I am me. The last thing I want to be is a nurse or a mother. If he does care then it is all worthwhile. If he only wants to be with me because of his health problems then I would rather end it. I do not want to end up being like a nurse to someone just because they are ill if we do not have a proper relationship. I also worry that he is only with me because nobody else would want him and he needs someone so much he would cling onto me rather than be on his own.