Another angle that might help your healing.
At a Soul Level we all have contracts with the people in our lives. We are part of a soul group and we have agreed to learn our lessons with each other.
One of those lessons may very well be about going through an abortion, where you have a contract with the soul of the baby to go through this experience.
Of course at a human level there will be a lot of emotions and feelings attached to this experience.
It may very well be that you come to this conclusion organically through the process of healing your grief over having an abortion. Or it may be that this was the approach you took all along.
But whatever way you come to this viewpoint, it in someway explains another approach to understanding why you chose to have an abortion.
This is not a cop-out viewpoint.
Far from it. No one willingly wants to have an abortion, it the solution to one problem but it very often causes a whole host of other problems.
Inherently it's in our biological nature as women to want to procreate, but emotionally and physically it may not always be the best outcome. We have more choices than ever before as women and one path of recovery is understanding what is going on at a deeper level so that our lives aren't wracked with guilt and self punishment.
For whatever reason that you and this soul decided before this lifetime that you were to have an abortion, the outcome was to be this other soul not being born to you at this time. It may be that you decided between lives that abortion was the outcome, or it may be that the other soul had free will and decided to not be born at this time.
But just know that it wasn't just a random act that has caused you to feel a victim of circumstance.
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